At 1:30 AM this morning, Baby M decided to wake up and cry and demand that lights be turned on. She didn’t go to bed for an hour. Needless to say I’m a zombie today. (Can you say, incoherent post?)
One of the things that is on my mind a lot is MONEY. As a performer I’ve always prided myself on having a side job while pursuing an acting career. That has become obsolete since I’ve become a mother. I’ve been auditioning but most of the time I’m cleaning the house and or cooking (things I suck at).
I’ve always had a black or white attitude towards these things in terms of earning money and being an artist. That is: either you earn a lot of money or you are a poor artist. Right now I’m in “poor artist” mentality and it’s completely eating at me. I liken it to mothers who decide they need to lose weight after having a baby. My “weight” is earning money and it bothers met that I am not able to earn as much money as I’d like. Even if I have a husband who can support me, I enjoy earning money.
I decided that not earning money and not having a steady income was also causing me to stress out. Yes, exercising, getting acupuncture, eating well etc. are all important things, but I feel earning/saving/investing money are really important to me. And call me crazy but I don’t feel that being an artist is mutually exclusive from earning a decent wage.
So I will continue to care for myself because I feel it’s very important and I will also focus on personal finance stuff/work which I’ve sort of ignored. Also
Action steps:
1. Read: Overcoming Under earning.
2. Check in on Actor’s Fund finance class
3. Register with 2 temp agencies
4. Refocus on submitting, auditioning.
5. Create a spreadsheet of how much I want to earn per month
