Archive for May, 2008

This week…

May 27, 2008

I have two auditions this week. One is tomorrow for a pretty excellent indie film producer and the one later this week is for a student film. Both of the roles are young mothers. I’m taking a risk because I’m definitely showing, but I figure why the hell not? If they like me fine, if not that’s okay too.

UPDATE: Decided to skip the student film one.  They’re shooting in August…I will be huge 🙂

I went to the Mac store and checked out the iMac and looked at 24″ screen. It was huge. I currently write with a G4 12″ laptop that I’ve had for 6 years…not sure if we need it right now.

I came across Creative Screen Writing Magazine’s podcast and listened to Diablo Cody talk about how she made Juno happen. Very interesting and insightful.

It’s a girl!!

May 25, 2008

I did not really know what I had so I had no expectations of how I’d feel. When I heard it was a girl, I was delighted.  I have no idea why. I don’t like girly, frilly things, nor do I imagine dressing her up in cutesy dresses.  I just felt like it was really really neat.

It was the second time J saw her on the screen moving around (my third time) and it was the first time that he felt that a baby was a reality.

The ultrasound operator commented that she was active and that was a good sign.

I’m surprised at how happy I am about it. And that’s kind of cool too.
 

May 23, 2008

May 23, 2008

Woke up, meditated for 15 minutes.

I have two auditions next week. One is for a producer whose work I’m REALLY excited about. The other is for one of the kick ass writers from Columbia. It will be good to prep for auditions because I haven’t been on one for a while.

OMG, I totally forgot that we’re finding out the gender of the baby today!!!!

Last night I was so exhausted but I forced myself to write a small page of dialogue.

May 22, 2008

May 22, 2008

Woke up and still felt terribly jetlagged. When J left for work, I fell back asleep and had to rush off to my part time job. I didn’t meditate and it probably wasn’t a coincidence that I felt a little cruddy throughout the day. I felt hormonal, grumpy and “not with it”.

I’m going on a five day meditation retreat the beginning of next month, I’m excited about that. For those who have never been, it may evoke exotic images of bliss. It’s actually very simple, sitting on a cushion and observing your mind.

May 21, 2008

May 21, 2008

Woke up with the alarm and meditated for 15 minutes. While I was in San Francisco, I ran across a book called “Creating a Life Worth Living” by Carol Lloyd. It’s a pragmatic book about creating a life as a creative person. The tone is not reverent, but very pragmatic and sensible. It leapt off the shelf and has been quite helpful.

One of the exercises in the book is to meditate or do something similar for the next seven days. It has definitely helped. Rather than feeling mentally “tight”, I feel a bit more “space” and agility. I also do feel more creative.

I’ll have to admit, I’ve been a bit nervous about the changes happening. I’m definitely getting bigger and having a difficult time getting around. Mentally I also began to fret terribly about finishing the script and short films. I began listening to the stealthy and evil voices in my head that told me that my work would never amount to anything and I was going to end up old, poor and penniless on the street. This is common for creative types and we really have to put the kabash on those insidious voices or self doubts. This makes us go get day jobs where we can make more money and forget about our dreams.

Today I decided to walk to work. It’s about 20 minutes and I thought it was wise to sneak in some exercise anyway I can. I love the work because it’s mindless. It’s easy and when there is down time, I’ve started whipping on the script and revising it. I also like the people who are all crazy cool musician types…very similar to actor types. I’m not completely wiped out when I get home and can function like a semi-normal person.

And this girl from this band called The St. Mannequins sent me her CD in the mail…I LOVE IT SO MUCH. It’s totally girly, whimsical and fun fun fun. I played it over 3 times when I first opened it. I met her on a print shoot a few months ago, super happy to hear it.

May 20, 2008

May 20, 2008

Came back from a brief California trip this weekend. Went to the MOMA, went to a Giant’s game, walked around the Farmer’s Market, had the best dim sum ever. I also wrote a bit. Oddly enough, I was enthused to come back to New York.

Getting over jetlag. I went to the grocery store yesterday and vowed to only use Fresh Direct from now on. Why? Pushy ladies, screaming kids, guys absentmindedly pushing their carts into my ankles.

Feeling slightly pooped.

May 14, 2008

May 14, 2008

Been a bit busy and also a tad blue. I’m definitely getting bigger and it’s been an extra effort to walk around.

The class with Israel and the Columbia students is ending and I’m a bit bummed about that. They were a rare and terrific group to work with. Sometimes with other screenwriters people can be competitive nor offer very constructive crit. This was not the case in this class. The writers were very smart, compassionate and earnestly wanted other people to improve their scripts. I mentioned it to one of the students and he agreed that it was a special class.

With the class ending, I’m definitely enrolling in a writing class during the day so I can stay on top of things. I want to have a reading next week. We’re also getting a Mac so I can finish up the projects I keep talking about. Honestly, it’s also because J really wants to get a Mac desktop.

Found an interesting article about Jennifer Dundas who is in Crimes Of The Heart on Broadway:
http://www.broadway.com/gen/Buzz_Story.aspx?ci=561894
Apparently she is an actress/ice cream shop owner. Very cool.

May 5, 2008

May 6, 2008

I went to yoga on the Upper West Side and it was terrific. Then I headed to Columbia for the graduate screen writing class. I also decided to get some exercise and walk 20 minutes to the train station.

I ran into a director I worked with 2 or 3 years ago, it was fun to talk to her. She talked about a documentary she worked on and how it changed her life. It was nice to chat to her about it because she was really touched by her subject matter and I could tell she worked very hard on it. I look forward to seeing it.

While I sat in the Dodge Hall cafe, a guy approached me about being in his thesis film. We’ll see. If he doesn’t mind me being 6 months pregnant. Actually, one of the students from the class asked if I would audition for his student film as well and I would really like to be part of it if he is cool with a big round woman. Again, we’ll see.

I still haven’t recovered from the cold I got last week, so I’m going to try and take it easy. When I got home, my nose and throat were really bothering me and I was exhausted.

May 1, 2008

May 2, 2008

Note to self: I must wear earplugs to deflect the 4:30 AM wakeup calls from the flock of noisy birds. I don’t think I’ve slept well for 2 weeks.

Today I went to the lab to edit my short film. I had an issue with reconnecting the media to the file. There was a man nearby who had two people helping him. I asked the woman at the rental area if I could ask a question about reconnecting media. She flatly told me that there weren’t people hired to answer our questions and connecting media was “advanced” and I could practice on the files from class. I asked her about the people who were helping the gentleman nearby and she said: “Well he comes here often.” After 3 minutes of this I decided that it was useless asking her for help.

I sat down and then a woman, who overheard the interaction, came to answer my question. It took 30 seconds and she was very nice about it.

I felt a bit let down today because I thought I’d be halfway through the film editing process. Instead I spent most of the time figuring out where everything was. I did manage to make a few edits.

I met with S at Starbuck’s near her temp job so I could take pictures of us for the film. We’re supposed to be college buddies and we wanted to insert fun photos in the film. I was in a bummy mood from the morning and wasn’t looking forward to doing it. It actually turned out to be a lot of fun. We walked around the city taking hilarious pictures of ourselves while cracking up. S was in a good mood and her good mood was infectious. We also had a nice chat about our careers and what the heck we were doing with our lives.

I forgot to mention I wrote about 1,000 words yesterday of the script. I spent today editing and revising it.