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May 1, 2008

May 2, 2008

Note to self: I must wear earplugs to deflect the 4:30 AM wakeup calls from the flock of noisy birds. I don’t think I’ve slept well for 2 weeks.

Today I went to the lab to edit my short film. I had an issue with reconnecting the media to the file. There was a man nearby who had two people helping him. I asked the woman at the rental area if I could ask a question about reconnecting media. She flatly told me that there weren’t people hired to answer our questions and connecting media was “advanced” and I could practice on the files from class. I asked her about the people who were helping the gentleman nearby and she said: “Well he comes here often.” After 3 minutes of this I decided that it was useless asking her for help.

I sat down and then a woman, who overheard the interaction, came to answer my question. It took 30 seconds and she was very nice about it.

I felt a bit let down today because I thought I’d be halfway through the film editing process. Instead I spent most of the time figuring out where everything was. I did manage to make a few edits.

I met with S at Starbuck’s near her temp job so I could take pictures of us for the film. We’re supposed to be college buddies and we wanted to insert fun photos in the film. I was in a bummy mood from the morning and wasn’t looking forward to doing it. It actually turned out to be a lot of fun. We walked around the city taking hilarious pictures of ourselves while cracking up. S was in a good mood and her good mood was infectious. We also had a nice chat about our careers and what the heck we were doing with our lives.

I forgot to mention I wrote about 1,000 words yesterday of the script. I spent today editing and revising it.

April 8, 2008

April 9, 2008

Today I was blue. This became apparent when my dearest friend with two children called me up and her children were chattering happily in the background. Every 2 seconds she had to gently reprimand them or address them: “You will get Elmo when we get home. Do you want Elmo? Do you want Elmo? Then please listen to Mommy. (silence) Thank you.” Then she cheerfully said: “See this is what you have to look forward to!” When she said that I felt miserable.

In the morning I wrote a bit but felt very tired. I free-wrote, I worked on a line or two on the one woman show. But I had a very difficult time writing and ended up packing up and heading home after an hour. I even booked a job for Thursday and found some way to make it a negative.

I called my friends who are actors/artist types who don’t have a 9-5 situation. One musician friend, who just came back from a tour, said that downtime can be difficult to deal with. He made me feel better by saying that it was a very real issue and not something to minimize. He said: “I just came back from a tour where crowds of people are cheering for me and now I’m in my apartment by myself and feel like: ‘This sucks.’ “. As artists, we experience the extremes of the joy and exhilaration of performing to mind numbing, soul sucking work or boredom. Striking that happy medium is a challenge.

I spoke to another actress who also agreed that battling boredom was difficult but she had learned to plan her days which helped.

It’s something that I’ve learned that is challenging and I’ll have to find ways to address it instead of being bogged down by it.

Afterwards, I went out for a 30 minute walk in the sunshine. That was helpful.

Pregnant Brain

March 28, 2008


I’m taking into account how my hormones and brain sort of play tricks on me. Since I haven’t been working a 9-5 job, I find I might get a bit loopier than usual. In the morning I’m fine, but in the evening my brain starts to melt down and thoughts begin to swirl around into incomprehensibly. I have manic thoughts of cleaning the house, reading a book, re-writing and doing an internship at a film production company…all at the same time.

I spoke to my friend friend J who told me to calm down and focus on what I’m supposed to do. He’s a new dad and he was like: “Dude! You’re making a baby, just chill the freak out.” I realized I was a bit paranoid that I wasn’t “doing anything.” So I now know that whenever I get a little batty, I just chalk it up to being pregnant.

I also discovered my friend who is a writer/director discovered his girlfriend is 12 weeks pregnant. They’re in LA now but returning to New York so I’m hoping to see them since our kids might be the same age. Also, I don’t know pregnant people, so it’d be cool to get to know more future moms.

Short Term Memory Loss

March 20, 2008

Crap!  If I don’t write this stuff down I will completely forget it:

-Call director’s group back for reading on Monday

-Email producer for short film production

-Put on calendar coffee tomorrow at 11:00

-Maybe get a job?



March 19, 2008

I just noticed that on the latest Safari Browser on a Mac the formatting of the text is all screwy….Sorry to those who see just large chunks of text with no paragraph breaks.  I’ll try and figure out how to fix it…